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Let not your heart be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. 

John 14:1



My daughter brought my grandchildren to visit while my sister was here for a doctor’s appointment.

Though my sister faces seemingly insurmountable obstacles in regard to her health

seeing Verne and Abigail brings her so much joy.

I have struggled knowing that there is a very real possibility that my sister will not live to

see grandchildren of her own. It made me incredibly sad, almost to the point where I felt guilty.

I just couldn’t wrap my heart around it.

And then I remembered that I didn’t have to.

God has her and he has me as well.

I cannot say that my heart is not still troubled. But the waters are not so turbulent.

I can use my faith to calm the waters of my heart.

I am walking with a deeper understanding of faith and of what it truly means to trust in God.

We do not know what will happen with my sister in the coming months. We are almost sure there will

be a third round of Chemo but we won’t know where else the cancer has spread for another few

weeks. The worst case is very bad and the best case is not that great.

But we have a resting period for the next few weeks in which to shore up our defenses.

To find our way to hearts that are not troubled.

To trust in God.

And to pray.

~


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  1. Michele Morin19 July 2020 at 06:40

    I have found the same thing to be true: when I wrestle to understand and to make sense of a tragedy, there is no peace to be had. Handing it (and myself--and my loved ones) over to God is not an easy thing, but it establishes my heart in peace.
    Praying for you and your sister in these shadowy days of unknowing.

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  2. Joanne Viola19 July 2020 at 07:03

    During this time, it is so hard to know how to visit and guard the health of the vulnerable. Praying for you and for your sister this morning. May God keep her both protected and strong. And may He keep your eyes on Him.

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  3. elizabeth19 July 2020 at 10:11

    I don't know the right words for what you and your sister are facing. I do know that nothing is impossible with God. I do also know that this life is not the end when we know Christ. I continue to ask for both miraculous healing and for God's peace and strength to walk through whatever is ahead.

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  4. Peabea Scribbles19 July 2020 at 11:49

    My heart breaks for your family going through this. Trust, I find at times is one that is hard because we humans usually or I do want an answer right away. Waiting and trusting. Praying for your family.

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  5. Linda Stoll19 July 2020 at 13:30

    I am so sorry about your sister ... I've found it amazing that deepest sorrow and serene joy mingle freely. Who'd guessed.

    So grateful for these beautiful little ones that add life and zest to your family and your heart.

    Bless you, friend in this difficult time. I hear you.

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  6. Samyuktha Semi Jayaprakash19 July 2020 at 14:29

    Thoughts and prayers with your sister.

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  7. Miaismine19 July 2020 at 15:55

    Hugs to you, my dear. When I was going through chemo, my grandchildren brought me joy, strength and gave me the will to fight another day. What your family is going through must be a nightmare, but you are seeking Him and His path to peace. May you find it.

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  8. Kym 20 July 2020 at 00:20

    Praying for you, your sister, and your whole family. May God continue to bring you peace and strength.

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