Wounded






I feel the loss of you

I suppose as one grows older 

the losses mount up

like unpaid bills or clean clothes that must be folded and put away

a pile in the corner somewhere

that constantly has your attention

though you go about your daily life as if it wasn't there

see a day on the calendar 

that no longer holds meaning 

no card to send out - no call to make

buy a tree and decorate trying not to remember

that this is the first Christmas

First New Year's 
First Valentine's

First anniversary 

of when you were no longer a person walking on this earth

I suppose as we get older

we learn to carry our wounds with us

rather than crumble under the weight of them

But I wish that you were still here with us

and carefree

and woundless

like when you were a girl

before we knew how heavy wounds could be

Comments

  1. Melody14 December 2016 at 06:41

    What a wonderful poem... and I can relate to it.... so sad to have to deal with loss, always trying to keep up and holding on to the good memories and the love one once felt, still feels, but no longer can show to that one person.

    I hope you find a way to carry your 'wounds' and feel as well as possible.

    Have a nice ABC-Wednesday / _ Week
    ♫ M e l ☺ d y ♫ (abc=w=team)
    http://melodymusic.nl/19w/

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  2. Gayle14 December 2016 at 08:45

    Your photo is 'still' and yet 'alive' (kind of like memories) Hoping expressing your feelings through words and photos is easing your grief.

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  3. carol l mckenna14 December 2016 at 17:28

    Gorgeous photo and awesome poetry of which I can relate very dearly ~ thanks,

    Wishing you peace in your days ~ ^_^

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  4. Roger Owen Green15 December 2016 at 05:57

    Trust me, I relate. First year in particular can be awful

    ROG, ABCW

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  5. Tamar SB15 December 2016 at 11:55

    such a poignant photo. Any loss is always present.

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  6. Devilish Angel16 December 2016 at 04:59

    Expressed well...

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  7. Cheryl21 December 2016 at 01:58

    I am so sorry for your loss, and I trust you will feel the comfort of the precious Holy Spirit as you face all of these "firsts". I so understand.

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